Sleep well. A gland in the command center releases its yellow hornet to tell you you're missing the point, the point being that getting smacked by a board, gored by umbrellas, tongue- lashed by cardiologists, bush-wacked by push-up bras is a learning experience. Sure, you're about learned up. Weren't we promised the thieves would be punished? Promised jet-packs and fleshy gardenias and wine to get the dust out of our mouths? And endless forgiveness? A floral rot comes out of the closet, the old teacher's voice comes out of the ravine, red-wings in rushes never forget their rusty-hinged song. Moon-song, dread-song, hardly-a-song at all song. Let's ignore that call, let someone else stop Mary from herself for the 80th time. It's never really dark anyway, not even inside the skull. Take my hand, fellow figment. Every spring we'll meet, definite as swarms of stars, insects over glazed puddles, your eyes green even though your driver's license says otherwise. And yes, mortal knells in sleepless hours, hollow knocks of empty boats against a dock but still the mind is a meadow, the heart an ocean even though it burns. As long as there's a sky, someone will be falling from it. After molting, eat your own shucked skin for strength, keep changing the subject in hopes that the subject will change you.
...if therapy WORKS, it transforms a patient's limbic brain and his emotional landscape forever. The person of the therapist will determine the shape of the new world a patient is bound for; the configuration of HIS limbic Attractors fixes those of the other. Thus the urgent necessity for a therapist to get his own emotional house in order. His patients are coming to stay, and they may have to live there for the rest of their lives. --Lewis, Amini and Lannon in A General Theory of Love p187 (emphases are original)
Last night I listened to This American Life on NPR, and as usual, the program was fascinating and well done. This particular program was the story of how homosexuality transitioned from being considered a pathology (a result of "close binding mothers" and "detached rejecting fathers") to being seen among psychiatrists as a "normal variant". ( more, originally posted 5/14/07, moved forward to 2/10Collapse )
The elementary school a block from my house has awakened. This morning there are people everywhere, repair men and mothers and kids. Groups of adults standing behind the school and talking in the sun. There's not a free parking spot on the block. ( moreCollapse )
Silence is the kiss of death for any relationship. Silence rules where there is fear, and pain. Silence is the absence of honest discourse. It begins when we each find each other's buttons, and agree to no longer go there. We each have different buttons, and they become surrounded with silent zones. ( buttons and silenceCollapse )
Current Mood: grateful
Current Music:interstate 17 roaring in the distance
I felt some loneliness the first week I was here. But now, no. I have enough acquaintances to not feel lonely. The landlady, Marie, speaks English and her bf is American. And her niece, Emma, also…
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