I took the amtrak from Portland to Seattle and back again. On the way there a young couple traded their business class seat to me, so they could sit together. I liked business class. There was a nice little heater right by my chair, and the seat was big enough to sit crosslegged in. On the way back, I took my comp ticket to the ticket counter to ask if I could upgrade it to business class. The lady checked and checked in the computer, and the moment she realized that my ticket was a comp, she scoffed, and said "No! This is a free ticket!" as if it was totally outrageous that I thought I might get away with riding in business class. I am after all just skiing riffraff, with a green gregory pack on my back and an old north face jacket. I thanked her for her help and went away to contemplate the class divide. I came out below it that time.
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I feel like I'm unravelling.....the stress of not liking my homespace combined with the new program, truck problems, general school stress.....have added up to me feeling like things are on the edge of coming apart entirely. I can't find my tea, keep loosing my watch and wallet and keys and ID and cell phone.....I don't seem to be able to bring the right stuff with me to school......I don't like feeling this way. It's as if there is pressure from all sides.
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