Nothing that is worth doing can be achieved in our lifetime; therefore, we must be saved by hope. ... Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone; therefore, we are saved by love. No virtuous act is quite as virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as it is from our standpoint. Therefore, we must be saved by the final form of love, which is forgiveness.
Sleep well. A gland in the command center releases its yellow hornet to tell you you're missing the point, the point being that getting smacked by a board, gored by umbrellas, tongue- lashed by cardiologists, bush-wacked by push-up bras is a learning experience. Sure, you're about learned up. Weren't we promised the thieves would be punished? Promised jet-packs and fleshy gardenias and wine to get the dust out of our mouths? And endless forgiveness? A floral rot comes out of the closet, the old teacher's voice comes out of the ravine, red-wings in rushes never forget their rusty-hinged song. Moon-song, dread-song, hardly-a-song at all song. Let's ignore that call, let someone else stop Mary from herself for the 80th time. It's never really dark anyway, not even inside the skull. Take my hand, fellow figment. Every spring we'll meet, definite as swarms of stars, insects over glazed puddles, your eyes green even though your driver's license says otherwise. And yes, mortal knells in sleepless hours, hollow knocks of empty boats against a dock but still the mind is a meadow, the heart an ocean even though it burns. As long as there's a sky, someone will be falling from it. After molting, eat your own shucked skin for strength, keep changing the subject in hopes that the subject will change you.
I am supposed to be asleep but I haven't been sleeping well the last several nights. My TMJ is acting up such that I can't even put the backs of my teeth together, and I have to be in class at 7:30am tomorrow morning. There is something about the time pressure that makes it even harder to get to bed on time. It doesn't help that tonight I had a class until 8pm, and on Mondays and Wednesdays I'm committed until 9pm. It takes me a few hours to decompress after classes. I can't just go to sleep. I end up getting up at 11 or 12 and puttering around until I start to sag again. ( moreCollapse )
I felt some loneliness the first week I was here. But now, no. I have enough acquaintances to not feel lonely. The landlady, Marie, speaks English and her bf is American. And her niece, Emma, also…
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