May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view. May your mountains rise into and above the clouds. ~Edward Abbey
Sleep well. A gland in the command center releases its yellow hornet to tell you you're missing the point, the point being that getting smacked by a board, gored by umbrellas, tongue- lashed by cardiologists, bush-wacked by push-up bras is a learning experience. Sure, you're about learned up. Weren't we promised the thieves would be punished? Promised jet-packs and fleshy gardenias and wine to get the dust out of our mouths? And endless forgiveness? A floral rot comes out of the closet, the old teacher's voice comes out of the ravine, red-wings in rushes never forget their rusty-hinged song. Moon-song, dread-song, hardly-a-song at all song. Let's ignore that call, let someone else stop Mary from herself for the 80th time. It's never really dark anyway, not even inside the skull. Take my hand, fellow figment. Every spring we'll meet, definite as swarms of stars, insects over glazed puddles, your eyes green even though your driver's license says otherwise. And yes, mortal knells in sleepless hours, hollow knocks of empty boats against a dock but still the mind is a meadow, the heart an ocean even though it burns. As long as there's a sky, someone will be falling from it. After molting, eat your own shucked skin for strength, keep changing the subject in hopes that the subject will change you.
Before you know what kindness really is you must lose things, feel the future dissolve in a moment like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand, what you counted and carefully saved, all this must go so you know how desolate the landscape can be between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride thinking the bus will never stop, the passengers eating maize and chicken will stare out the window forever.
Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness, you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you, how he too was someone who journeyed through the night with plans and the simple breath that kept him alive.
Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside, you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing. You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice catches the thread of all sorrows and you see the size of the cloth.
Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore, only kindness that ties your shoes and sends you out into the day to mail letters and purchase bread, only kindness that raises its head from the crowd of the world to say it is I you have been looking for, and then goes with you every where like a shadow or a friend.
Somebody has to do something. It's just incredibly pathetic that it has to be us. --Jerry Garcia
Walking is a man's best medicine --Hippocrates
Both quotes swiped from this vid, entitled 23 and 1/2 hours. The author is a doctor who'd like to convince you that the best thing you can do for your health is limit your sitting and sleeping to 23.5 hours/day.
The Guru Papers Masks of Authoritarian Power by Joel Kramer and Diane Alstad
This book was particularly formative for my thinking. I believe the first time I read it was about a decade ago, though it's been out longer. I've recently loaned it to a friend and every time I pick it up I run across another awesome thought. Basically it starts out looking at gurus, who they are and what they do, and why. The tail end of the book is about authoritarianism, and the nuts and bolts of how people fall prey to bosses that don't even pay them. It was partly this book that programmed me to be hyper-aware of the word "should". I'm ready to re-read it, soon as I get it back...and have the time.
I felt some loneliness the first week I was here. But now, no. I have enough acquaintances to not feel lonely. The landlady, Marie, speaks English and her bf is American. And her niece, Emma, also…
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