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Back into myself

All it takes is the tiniest little descent back into myself and things come clear again. I am in a position where I keep retreating into a turtle shell of fear and denial. It is not easy to keep my heart open. But tonight provoked by a friend teaching a meditation class I sat with a small group again and sat with myself. I arose awakened once again, if only temporarily. I know what I need to do. I think I know the cost. I do not know exactly how to do it. But I am doing it. I must. I must stay true to myself. I will surround myself with the best influences. I will be strong and nonviolent and honest and kind.

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neptunia67
Feb. 22nd, 2008 05:15 am (UTC)
Good for you, and good luck, doing whatever it is you need to do.
aughraseye
Feb. 24th, 2008 04:15 am (UTC)
I like this post. Are you still feeling conflicted about continuing at your school, or are you settling into the program?
liveonearth
Feb. 25th, 2008 02:10 am (UTC)
I am conflicted about just about everything.
That's just the way I am.
But I'm learning to be the way I am more consistently.
If that makes the slightest bit of sense....
aughraseye
Feb. 26th, 2008 04:17 am (UTC)
It makes complete sense to me. Be conflicted! I feel very similar about being sensitive to the opinion of others. Being that *is* being me, paradox and all. At least, I think that is similar to what you're saying.

I hope things are well up in Portland. :)
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