At home life is good. Suzanne has been learning her way around town and purchasing furniture and fixer uppers for our little place. Yesterday we got a couch up the stairs. The door is narrow and we had to take the legs off the sofa to stuff it though, but it went. Vida (S's pug) was psyched. That dog loves to have a couch! =-]
School tension keeps me from enjoying home as much as I would if I weren't in this program. But I'm learning what it takes for me to succeed, and as I learn that I am able to succeed, I am gradually relaxing. I've learned that in order to have any productive study time at home, I must refrain from altering my mind in any way when I first get home. It is tempting to join in with the relaxation rituals, but I must maintain clarity early because I don't regain it later if I lose it earlier. So last night I stayed sober all evening and was able to focus well for about 45 minutes before bedtime, which I think set the stage for this morning's effective cram session. I seem to study best at school, so I'm just taking that time before or after classes to review the material while I'm here.
Yesterday I got my teeth cleaned, and the dentist let me know that I have about 6 teeth that he would like to fix. Four of them have cavities on them. He is inclined to remove all of my old mercury laden fillings, and so it the hygenist who was picking at them trying to lift them out of my teeth with her tools. She managed to damage one of them enough that it is now sharp and severs my dental floss. Makes me mad. I would rather not destroy functional fillings. Those fillings have lasted me nearly 30 years, and the ones that they want to replace them with are supposely only good for 10 years. I don't understand why they can't make fillings last longer than that. It reminds me of planned obsolescence in electronic technology: they make more money by making a product that doesn't last. I would pay more for something that would last longer. I think I will again spring for the more expensive but more long lived GOLD tooth fix. I don't want to come back every 10 years to fix every one of my 24 teeth that has a filling. There are too many of them. Especially if a fix averages $400.