INTERESTING TIMES

Yesterday I did a few more home-making errands, such as buying a kettle that whistles so I won't burn any more pots on the stove. I bought a gallon each of vinegar and bleach, and cleaned my bathroom for the 3rd time. I washed the walls first with vinegar, then with bleach, and the green colored water revealed that I was actually removing the paint from the walls. I left a fan blowing out the window to remove the fumes. I cleaned under and behind everything, scrubbed the trim, pulled all the hair and bandaids out of the heating vents, washed all the towels and rugs, cleaned the litter box and took out the trash. After it was all done I had a hopeful moment that the smell would be gone, but it's still there. I can burn incense in there every day until I die and that smell will still be in there. I may try some commercial products that cover or "eat" odors.

So I remain open to other living arrangements.
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This morning I rode to school and back again to learn the route. It took me 47 minutes to ride to school, and longer to ride home because I got lost and had to backtrack. I was riding pretty hard and not carrying anything but a small fanny pack. No way am I going to do that ride every day in the rain and dark carrying books. Looks like I'll be riding the bus until I find another place to live. Since school is just about to start, moving will have to wait until something works out naturally. I'm not going to push it right now. Let go, let the flow take me to the next place when the time is ripe.
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Gamble everything for love...
Half-heartedness doesn't reach into majesty.
You set out to find God,
but then you keep stopping for long periods
at mean-spirited roadhouses.
Don't wait any longer.
Dive in the ocean,
leave and let the sea be you...

--Rumi, from Say I am You